Software never dies. Code is for ever. Its the hardware that ages.

Our very existence may be merely an operating system running on a bare bone chassis when we are born. We could beaf up the chassis as we grow up to certain hardware and software limitations. You can install and remove applications as you go but operating system stores that in a log file. You get viruses and sometimes could corrupt files when trying to run applications that are not compatible or meant for the hardware. Some of which can be restored and fixed depending on the value of the existence of this system while others leave a permanent damage. If you corrupt a system file then you could only copy the exact same file from another matching hardware and operating system. You will be restored anytime to your last existing working condition from the last known working backup image at some undetermined time in the future. Depending on your log file and history you would be evaluated to have a value to be permanently restored on a VM with unlimited resources beyond what an operating system needs or could handle on a physical single hardware.

Disease

When the plague of jealousy, lie and envy surrounds a nation, a tribe, a group, a family or a human being then those who are not affected come in contact feels the most discomfort. Ironically this is contagious but at the same time slow penetrating. It become obvious with the hatred shown between relationships and the impurity of sacred bondings. Those are suffering from it don't know that they have it and those come in contact with it don't know what just hit them. If you think too much and start evaluating every single moment then living becomes challenging. Only cure is to be quarantined to taken away from the surroundings.

Not a Deja Vu.

And time changes, people changes, the view changes on the same place sometimes. Time does not stop so change in time is a non factor. People change, their attitude change and their behavior changes. Attitude and behavior change is sometime the direct result of position and value changes in people. Memories, the video and images of the past stuck to brain and circumstances putting you on the same spot and same place but it is not Deja Vu. Not even close. May be the person with memories and images is the one that has changed. It is funny how life moves on. You like it or not. One negative affect of all this change results in erasing those memories and images that you have been holding on to for so long. It feels like lost pieces in the puzzle. Sometime confusing and sometime sad. You know what piece was there but you don't have that anymore and your puzzle does not look complete. And you move on to the next moment, writing a new past. Good or bad, only when in the future you could judge.

A deep sea fish in an ocean of this world
Once sitting on the bank and watching the river flow
Dreaming to be out there one day alone
Now here I am away from home
Yet at home I believe
Learning to swim and finding new horizons
Each brand new day
I did not know that O' you life
Is so full of surprise
Should I leave or hold my breath
For you pushing me close to the edge
Behold thy enormous waves and tides
I know I will make it to the other side
Win or lose, how I would know
Keep doing what I am told
Behemoth the ocean it might be
My world is only what the sight see

Sometimes a wish comes true earlier than expected. It is important to wish at a right moment for right thing. What if your wish is granted and you are not ready. You would then not appreciate it the way you would have it had never happened for you. We ask for so many things in life not realizing that if we were to get everything we had asked for, what are we going to do then. Every single item that is so important to us in that list would lose its importance and we would forget to be thankful in a manner we should be otherwise.

Sometimes a fear that it could go wrong outweighs our chance of even trying.
And sometimes a fear of 'what if' keeps us away from doing something simple and satisfying but if we somehow overcome it and do it and nothing happens then we get mad ourselves for not doing that earlier. That is the gamble we face in our daily lives. For brave ones it is routine. For lucky one it is just another leaf waiting to turn green the moment the touch it. But for some others, even the smallest thing becomes larger than life. As we are presented with choice after choice. Should i wear this? Is this jacket going to be good enough for the cold outside. Is it even going to be cold. I checked the temperature and I guess I would be alright. Do i have something else to back it up. I should make sure I have a hat and gloves. Would I look good wearing all black. Choices, choices, choices.

After having kids i believe the greatest change in a person is that he is not adamant anymore. As if you got new glasses to see the same world but everything looks different. As they say it, objects in mirror are closer than they appear. Same is true for life after kids. You start believing that everything is possible. All odds exists. Decisions and choices are only decisions and not firm decisions. You live day to day. Life exists in present as you continue to face what life throws at you. Having too many plans and thinking too much only slows you down.

Sometimes what a person is doing is not his extreme. He could be worst and indeed he could be once. So whatever you can squeeze in is what the best you get out sometimes. All that evil is still not alright but he is trying.

Sometimes we do not open or try new avenues of happiness because we are so afraid of losing or coming out of our comfort zone. How would we know how far we could go and how much leash is given to us without trying.

I like hooded shirt. It makes me feel so warm and secure and focus. Its amazing how sometime blocking a view of your eyesight you are able to see so much that you have not seen before. Like a horse wearing blinkers. Sometime all a person need is 5 minutes calm and quiet moment and just not think about anything. Sit idle and look around you or just eagerly focus on something like a baby. Throw legs, lay down, sit, whatever, just think you are a young 15 year old boy who has no worries no responsibilities and you do not have to go anywhere. you do not need to look at time just see with blank mind and flow with the moments. Let your brain fly lightly like a feather flying in the air. You actually would remember thing, and people, and details that you never thought you even had. You look at the clock and boom you are running late. You have to go. Back to filling in your brain with more memories. Best time spent.

When i take a break for even five minutes to just think and slow down i could feel my heart is pumping as if I have just stopped after running a marathon. Even to slow down is not easy sometimes, the time the clock keeps pushing you faster.

You hide a truth and it will blow up on your face one day and might even kill you if you are not lucky. For what if it had been told earlier might have caused only a tiny time healing bump.

For what which as long as is not within reach remains a peach.

Life is cruel. Enjoy while you are healthy. Do not mix business with emotion and do not ever get emotionally attached to a business unless it is your own. A man without a goal is kicked around like a ball in either directions. Now i understand the importance of goal in soccer, without which you could go on forever and never wins.

Life 101

never do wrong and you would ever have to worry about getting caught.

When you are born in one country and spend 20 some years and then move on to live a practical life in a totally foreign country then several of your childhood dreams are scrambled and you are too busy in your life to build them together and achieve it an get contended. Instead the child inside you never be becomes happy inspire of all you have achieved in your career making adventure. The other day I saw three beautiful coles together in a flag outside a real estate office and first thing came to my mind was how beautiful a kite would look in these colors and then I start remembering how I always wants to have lots of money to buy big kites and good strings and be the guy with the best matchup in the neighborhood. And now here I am riding NJ railway line to downtown Philadelphia for work and here goes another sweet dream o my childhood back in my memory vault. And no matter what I buy or get this child inside me has yet another disappointment and that too sounds familiar.